Celebration time

Today we celebrated my father’s birthday. It was a birthday you couldn’t attent and I honestly felt more like myself again. Laughing, joking around and being as goofy as I used to as a child. 

Yes, I zoned out at times. That still happens, with or without you. But my happy go lucky side was definitely there tonight. 

You got mentioned, we spoke about the situation and at times I scare myself when I hear the conversations. Breaking up seems to be the right option, at least when I’m speaking. 

But when I’m back home - I’m not so sure. I still care deeply and I want nothing but the best for you, but maybe the best just isn’t me.. 

Just me, a cup of coffee, and a thought I can’t shake.

What’s yours?