Heartbreak

I’m breaking his heart — and he knows it.
 It’s in the things I say, in how I talk about wanting what’s best for him. In admitting that we’re not always compatible, that sometimes it feels like we don’t speak the same language.

I keep noticing how other couples interact — the ease, the way they show love — and it makes me wonder if I’ll ever have that. And if I do, I know it would mean breaking up with him.

It breaks my heart too, but I’m used to that feeling now.

Maybe it’s self-sabotage. Maybe I’m protecting him — or myself. But I shouldn’t have this many doubts if we were right for each other… right?

Just me, a cup of coffee, and a thought I can’t shake.

What’s yours?